Truth is I have had alot on my mine past few days. Been thinking about finding a job and saveing up money. I have been thinking about my mom and her being in the hospital and cant going to see her. Most of all I have been thinking about my baby Candie. Yeah I know I think about her all the time but I love her so much. Past few days I have tryed to open up to her about somethings that have been bother me but when I do she thinks I am just trying to start fights but that is not true at all. I love her so much she dont even know.

Anyways I have been kinda bitchy at her because she gets online and trys to do way to many things at one time in turns she as but just a little time for me and I get on to her about it alot. Ok truth is I feel like a girl about it. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and make everything better but I cant. She shows me every day that she loves me and shows me what she would give up just to be with me (which means more to me then she knows). I dont know I try to be nice about things when she gets online and stuff but it is hard waiting to talk to the person all day and then they have to do home work and talk to friends and me at the same time. Cant really stay on the phone to long now days so I get upset at her and hurt her which I dont mean to do .

I love her more then anything and I am nothing without her I hope she sees that and every day I cant see her or touch her my heart breaks into. I guess what I am trying to say is I have really been a Asswhole to the only person I am truely in love with and I want her to know (YEAH YOU BABY) that I am going to do better. I love you and I am going to show you and treat you better I promise.

Well got a job interveiw and a foodstamp resign up. So I will talk to you soon baby I LOVE YOU with all my heart <3